Monday, November 7, 2011

And the wall came crumbling down

See that? It's a stone wall. It's nice and level on top; the shape of the rocks aren't perfect but they fit together pretty nicely to hold the whole thing up.

And this one? A similar stone wall....falling apart.

Since when did my life come crashing down around me?

How did I end up in this....weird predicament, one I didn't see coming but probably should have. I've never been good at looking too far into the future. I'm more of a here and now kinda girl. I guess I better start fixing that.

My writing has taken a major hit. This is important to me but family problems are more important, and have to be my priority, as hard as that is. Recent events have shaken up my brain and entire way of life.

All I can do is get out some cement and start putting those rocks back together, even if they don't look as nice as they did when the wall was first built.

I'm no constructionist (is that a word?) and I'm not very strong but I have to do the best I can.

I get fulfilment from lots of things, not just from family; yes that's the most important one but I'm allowed to have things I like outside of my home. I think it's healthy to have that kind of escape. I like networking, I like writing, I like talking to people who have similar interests as me and can give me ideas/tip for my writing. I don't have anyone in person who I can really talk to about this kind of stuff, so online I go. Not everyone understands that, and that's okay.

Back to my crumbling stone wall.


Carissa Elg said...

You already know this, but I can so relate. It's hard to feel safe enough… focused enough to be creative. It's hard to WANT to when everything around you is falling apart. But it will get better. Keep the mindset that this is just a new adventure. One to be taken with eyes wide open. Best of luck, Emmy! I'm here if you need to talk to someone going through the same thing… <3

EmmyAhrens said...

Hey thanks for the support. I think of you sometimes when stuff like this happens. Weird huh? I like you said on one of your posts, that people come in and out of your life to teach you things. I try to keep that in mind, that maybe that's what I need to believe. Anyway, thanks again dear.

Dave Klimek said...

Hang in there! I know that is not much to go on, but take some comfort in that even if you don't have someone to talk to "in person", in this new world of networking, it doesn't make the virtual conversations you have any less real (or helpful).

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